I'm back. Been sick with a sinus and double ear infections.
Do you ever feel you've disappointed God? Well, while I've been sick, my daily devotions and Bible reading were non existent. I was doing so well too. Not watching tv, reading good books and working on my discipleship class work every night. Right down the tubes. But there is good news....I don't think (and this is only my opinion) that we can disappoint God. Have you ever wished for something for Christmas? You hope and pray and you expect your mom and dad will get it for you...only to be disappointed when you open the box and it's ________ (fill in the blank). It's happened to us all. But that's the point. God doesn't expect anything from us. He already knows what we're going to do. We don't surprise Him. He knows everything. He doesn't sit up there and say "I can't believe she did that!" My grandson Dawson loves buttons. The dvd player is a wonderful toy. But we tell him not to push the button that opens it and ruins the show. He inches his little hand closer and closer. Looks over his shoulder at me. Of course I knew he would push it until he learned better. So I was not disappointed in him at all. I've watched him grow and now he knows better. That's us with God. We are growing and learning and He is watching us with infinite love. No expectation..do disapointment. He is smiling at us like I smile at Dawson. Oh by the way, did you read your Bible today? I did :)

I can't ask today...I forgot.
Yesterday I caught myself telling "not the complete truth". I fought my conscience saying it wasn't totalling untrue. Just a short version that was basically the same but not. The total truth would have taken alot of explaining etc. The short version was quick and easy. Later, I said well, I should tell God I'm sorry and I started to...but I decided I wasn't really sorry. What's the big deal? It didn't bother me or the other person and ..and...and. So I tried to see what I had done through Gods eyes. OK. I didn't kill anyone. I know people say one sin is as bad as another but really, oh yeah, God said that. Crazy. But if He sees my "not the complete truth" as seriously as a murder...If that were my only sin..ever...it would be enough to keep me from Heaven. Wow. Just for that? God is so perfect that a sin is a sin not matter what the sin. For my silly little "not the complete truth" Jesus would have had to die for me so I could go to Heaven! This is much more personal than ssaying Jesus died for the sins of the world. He died for my "not the complete truth", for my fib, for my little white lie, my omission, for my LIE. My SIN. Call it what it was..a SIN. Wow. We need to hold up what we do against God's perfect standard and not that of the world. Believe me, I repented as fast as I could and pray that He will continue to show me my actions for what the really are. Thank you Lord.

Have your read your Bible today? I may just continue to ask that question as a way of holding myself accountable. This am I was hurrying around to get out the door when it occurred to me that I might post a blog today. I had not taken the time to read my Bible. How can I ask others if I don't do it myself? So I put everything down, went back into the bedroom andpicked up my Bible. I'm so glad I did. I stopped rushing around and read the Word of God. Peace. Tranquillity. Assurance.

Have you read your Bible today?
After my last post, I began to think about the people who "walked across the room" for me. I would say the first was Rev Louis Hausele from Haskinville Wesleyan Church. I was going to be married in the Wesleyan church (the Aldermans home church) but as I had been divorced, I was told that I could not be married "upstairs". So the night before the wedding, we were setting up chairs in the basement and arranging everything. Rev. Hausele came over and asked me why we wanted to get married in the basement. I was embarassed, assuming he knew, but I told him it was because I been married and divorced. His reaction was....so? Next think I knew we were going up the stairs into the sanctuary. Many times over the years I wondered what would have happened if he had not "accepted" me "upstairs". More than likely I would never have felt welcome there and not have gone there for church. Maybe I would never have been saved or at least not as quickly as I was....4 months after the wedding. Rev. Hausele led me to the Lord and his wife, Joyce, led my first ever Bible Study on Romans. The Hausele family has remained close to me....I am especially fond of them.

Did you read your Bible today?
Last night I read a book by Bill Hybels, Walk Across the Room. He was my Pastor for the year I attended Willow Creek in Chicago. I worked with him in Guest Central after the services. David had many talks with him about planting the church here in Wilmington. I guess I should tell you that is why we are here in NC. Some families from NY, including my neice Noele and her husband, are planting a church here with the help of the district up in NY. I am here as chief babysitter for Dawson.
Anyway, the book was good. And easy read. Talked about evangelism and how we need to "walk across the room" to reach others. It's all about relationships. I loved when he said he's a "seed planting fool". That's what I want to be. We don't always get to see the harvest but we can all plant.

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Everyone seems to have a blog so I wanted one too. My son Isaac asked me what I would blog about..what was I interested in. God came immediately to mind but I didn't say it because it would sound dumb. But so what. I'm tired of being afraid someone might think I'm dumb or silly. God is who occupies most of my life so this blog will be my thoughts of Him and what He has taught me, done for me or what He tells me to write. If you think I'm incorrect or theologically unsound, feel free to comment...or just comment anyway. Teach me what you know.